I'm not gonna lie. I'm nervous. I've done everything I can possibly do to prepare but there is still that feeling in the pit of my stomach that I'm about to be hit by a ton of bricks. Actually, it's not just a feeling, it's a fact. I watched Daniel struggle for over two years trying to keep his head above water while holding down a full-time job and being a loving husband. Not to mention trying to keep his sanity. I fell in love with him even more for that sacrifice.
And now I am taking those same steps. I truly don't know how I would do it without him. He has been my BIGGEST supporter. Every thing you could possibly think of to help me prepare, he has done. It's just so nice to have someone in your corner rooting for you, especially when they know exactly what you are going through. He's on the Livvy train, waving the Livvy flag, cowbell in hand, with a shirt that says, "Go Livvy." I just love him.
It's a very different thing going to school as an adult. I'm far more focused and determined than I ever was in my teens and early twenties. This is business. I know if I keep my head down and focus for two years the payoff will be so worth it. I keep thinking back to Daniel's pinning in May. Before the ceremony Daniel pointed out to the "shout out" portion in the program. Beside his name was a heartfelt sentence thanking me for my supporting him throughout his nursing school career. I can't stop thinking about how good it will feel to finally thank him, at the same ceremony, two years from now, for helping me realize my dream. This is what I am meant to do with my life. I know without a shadow of a doubt that God put Daniel in my life to help me get there.
I guess I just wanted to gather my thoughts before tomorrow's roller coaster ride begins. I guess I should quit singing "Lose Yourself" by Eminem and try to get some sleep.
Wish me luck!
Liv
